I want to end it and if I keep going this way, it will be inevitable. I wake up each day to the realization of my dreadful life and I die a little more each day. My boyfriend of 7yrs left me a month after my Dad died. He was cruel and insensitive, and left me like I was trash. He was diagnosed with bipolar, then he became obsessed with aspergers and got some doctor to validate it. Now, he takes no responsibility for anything. I cried until I made myself sick and went into meltdown. I gave him everything I could, but all he cared about was what I couldn't give. I never met anyone so unfeeling or without compassion. People screw you over and then go on with their life, like it's no big deal. No compassion, just their ass to kiss as they skip out the door. He basically trashed all the years we were together and told me he played with my head and it's what he wanted me to believe. I haven't been the same since and I'm just existing. Scarred & damaged
No sooner had I gone through that, my brother wanted control over my elderly mom's life & benefit from her money and home. I took care of her and my dad for 6yrs and sacrificed my entire life. My brother locked me out of her house, changed the locks and told me I was no longer welcome there. Then he went to an attorney and accused me of stealing money from my mom, so he could discredit me and make himself look better. My mom calls me and cries, but she's too intimidated to stand up and regain her life. I just buried my dad and I don't feel like I have a family at all. It's just too much to deal with and the holidays make it worse. I feel like I've lost everything, including myself. I'm lonely, suffering and in so much pain I can hardly stand it. I can't believe that people can be so EVIL and heartless. Will they ever get what they deserve or do they just go on to the next victim. I've always tried to do what's right and this is what I get for it. I know God is there, but I'm in hell on earth and it gets harder every day. I try to have hope, but I cry and think of ways to end it. I feel so worthless.
No sooner had I gone through that, my brother wanted control over my elderly mom's life & benefit from her money and home. I took care of her and my dad for 6yrs and sacrificed my entire life. My brother locked me out of her house, changed the locks and told me I was no longer welcome there. Then he went to an attorney and accused me of stealing money from my mom, so he could discredit me and make himself look better. My mom calls me and cries, but she's too intimidated to stand up and regain her life. I just buried my dad and I don't feel like I have a family at all. It's just too much to deal with and the holidays make it worse. I feel like I've lost everything, including myself. I'm lonely, suffering and in so much pain I can hardly stand it. I can't believe that people can be so EVIL and heartless. Will they ever get what they deserve or do they just go on to the next victim. I've always tried to do what's right and this is what I get for it. I know God is there, but I'm in hell on earth and it gets harder every day. I try to have hope, but I cry and think of ways to end it. I feel so worthless.