desertflower88
Member
Let me begin by saying this has been the worst week in awhile. Can't quiet my anxiety so must get this out.....
I was seeing this guy for a couple weeks and i fell absolutely in love, i fell so hard it was unhealthy making me ill. I get the grand notion to get completely sloshed and show up at his house uninvited at 3am. Yes i realize this was very dumb. he proceeds to tell me I was just a lay and throws me out like trash. I begin weeping uncontrollably on his porch and before i know it the cops are there and I'm being arrested. It was embarrassing and shameful, and believe me I didn't go peacefully.
So now what do I do? The alcohol fueled all this but there's deeper issues. I work in a bar and majority of people i know drink a lot. I wanna quit my job and just lay low for awhile and get my head straight. I've got this sick attachment to be loved by a man, so desperate for a approval I imagine they care when they don't. I wish i wasn't this way. Any insight is appreciated.....
I was seeing this guy for a couple weeks and i fell absolutely in love, i fell so hard it was unhealthy making me ill. I get the grand notion to get completely sloshed and show up at his house uninvited at 3am. Yes i realize this was very dumb. he proceeds to tell me I was just a lay and throws me out like trash. I begin weeping uncontrollably on his porch and before i know it the cops are there and I'm being arrested. It was embarrassing and shameful, and believe me I didn't go peacefully.
So now what do I do? The alcohol fueled all this but there's deeper issues. I work in a bar and majority of people i know drink a lot. I wanna quit my job and just lay low for awhile and get my head straight. I've got this sick attachment to be loved by a man, so desperate for a approval I imagine they care when they don't. I wish i wasn't this way. Any insight is appreciated.....