Yaku
Active member
Lately I've been feeling out of phase with the world. Like I occupy the same plane as others but slightly parralel.
For example today I had to go to the shop to buy food for my dogs and while driving I had this strange feeling of being out of place. Other cars would turn into the road right in front of me from a side street like they didn't see me. Another car locked its breaks and almost hit me from behind at a traffic light; again like they didn't see me.
At the shop the same happened with two different people that bumped into me from the side, they would apologize and say they didn't see me, also strangely, not making eye contact.
I stood at at the register for what felt like 5 minutes before the lady noticed me, even after I tried to get her attention verbally. Also strangely she made no eye contact.
I think the isolation is getting to me. Have I become so isolated that I'm irrelevant? I feel like a ghost, and that others feel like their being haunted by my presence haha. And I keep dreaming nightly about living in the 1950's. I'm always in a club wearing a suit, and smoking a cigarette, while a band plays and a lady sings a lovely song. She actually makes eye contact with me, like I exist.
I'm more real in my dreams than in real life.
Any advice would be appreciated.
For example today I had to go to the shop to buy food for my dogs and while driving I had this strange feeling of being out of place. Other cars would turn into the road right in front of me from a side street like they didn't see me. Another car locked its breaks and almost hit me from behind at a traffic light; again like they didn't see me.
At the shop the same happened with two different people that bumped into me from the side, they would apologize and say they didn't see me, also strangely, not making eye contact.
I stood at at the register for what felt like 5 minutes before the lady noticed me, even after I tried to get her attention verbally. Also strangely she made no eye contact.
I think the isolation is getting to me. Have I become so isolated that I'm irrelevant? I feel like a ghost, and that others feel like their being haunted by my presence haha. And I keep dreaming nightly about living in the 1950's. I'm always in a club wearing a suit, and smoking a cigarette, while a band plays and a lady sings a lovely song. She actually makes eye contact with me, like I exist.
I'm more real in my dreams than in real life.
Any advice would be appreciated.