LeaningIntoTheMuse
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I don't think that. I just think the OP is fighting against something that he's obviously struggling with, and we aren't equipped here to help him with it.
swanlake said:The mistake you made was going to Target on a weekend when families are shopping with their children. You can easily avoid this by shopping during week days or in the evening when there is less of a chance of children being present.
Unfortunately, I can't tell you how to stop these feelings.
anon6156 said:Today is day 67.
Frito Bandito said:anon6156 said:Today is day 67.
You could get real proactive and shut off your Internet connection.
Ak5 said:OP has panic attacks if he doesn't look at young girls (below age 11!)? There is definitely something wrong...
Ak5 said:OP has panic attacks if he doesn't look at young girls (below age 11!)? There is definitely something wrong.
My best bet is that the OP should see a psychiatrist and get on medication.
EveWasFramed said:Ak5 said:OP has panic attacks if he doesn't look at young girls (below age 11!)? There is definitely something wrong.
My best bet is that the OP should see a psychiatrist and get on medication.
That's inaccurate, according to his post. He said he has anxiety attacks when he DOES look at them.
Just pointing out the error...
anon6156 said:So, the other day I was in a Target and there was this woman chaperoning a group at least 8 young girls, all 11 or younger. The group was walking towards me and I tried looking away and ignoring them (or at least as much as I could without risking running one of them down with my cart). But then as I passed them and concentrated on ignoring them I started having a panic attack. I kept moving forward hoping that as I got distance from them and eventually out of sight that I'd start to shake it off but it only got worse. Then, suddenly I was acutely aware of all the young girls in the store and I started to feel like I was surrounded and I had to get away. I left the store without buying anything. As I sat in my car trying to calm down all I could think about was how much I hated that it took that much effort to keep from looking.
Ak5 said:Just pointing that out. The OP did not look at the girls, and did his best to ignore them, and in doing so he got a panic attack. I mean, I could be wrong, but that is what I understood.
anon6156 said:Why is it that I can't even look at a young girl without going into some sort of fit?
Ak5 said:anon6156 said:So, the other day I was in a Target and there was this woman chaperoning a group at least 8 young girls, all 11 or younger. The group was walking towards me and I tried looking away and ignoring them (or at least as much as I could without risking running one of them down with my cart). But then as I passed them and concentrated on ignoring them I started having a panic attack. I kept moving forward hoping that as I got distance from them and eventually out of sight that I'd start to shake it off but it only got worse. Then, suddenly I was acutely aware of all the young girls in the store and I started to feel like I was surrounded and I had to get away. I left the store without buying anything. As I sat in my car trying to calm down all I could think about was how much I hated that it took that much effort to keep from looking.
Just pointing that out. The OP did not look at the girls, and did his best to ignore them, and in doing so he got a panic attack. I mean, I could be wrong, but that is what I understood.
EveWasFramed said:Ak5 said:Just pointing that out. The OP did not look at the girls, and did his best to ignore them, and in doing so he got a panic attack. I mean, I could be wrong, but that is what I understood.
anon6156 said:Why is it that I can't even look at a young girl without going into some sort of fit?
Im not sure which of us is misunderstanding to be honest.
Pezza said:Don't ask people to not attack, they have every right to. The OP has admitted to watching child porn, if he hadn't then yes it would be wrong for people to attack him, however he has.
The OP has said that he's stopped which is good. However he could always be lying.
I myself don't really care all that much if people commit crimes or break laws, that would be hypocritical of me. However there are a few that are unforgivable. Child abuse is one of them. I would like to abuse every ****** who has committed it. I know the OP hasn't abused anyone, but he has willingly watched someone doing just that, therefore he's supporting the system. I don't care what you people say, everyone has sexual desires and fetishes, but they do not stop us from thinking, they do not stop us from understanding right from wrong. He was well aware that what he wanted to watch was disgraceful. He was well aware that a child was scarred for life. He was well aware it was wrong. He did it anyway.
I hope you get caught and charged with the possession of child pornography, just as I wish it upon every other person who has done what you have. Just because you have asked for help doesn't change what you've already done. You should have done the right thing and asked for help BEFORE you got a kick from that child being violated.
Oh and has anyone even considered the OP's motivations for quitting child porn? You do realize that it's very likely that he's giving up due to fear of being caught. Just because he says otherwise doesn't mean you should believe it.
Ak5 said:anon6156 said:So, the other day I was in a Target and there was this woman chaperoning a group at least 8 young girls, all 11 or younger. The group was walking towards me and I tried looking away and ignoring them (or at least as much as I could without risking running one of them down with my cart). But then as I passed them and concentrated on ignoring them I started having a panic attack. I kept moving forward hoping that as I got distance from them and eventually out of sight that I'd start to shake it off but it only got worse. Then, suddenly I was acutely aware of all the young girls in the store and I started to feel like I was surrounded and I had to get away. I left the store without buying anything. As I sat in my car trying to calm down all I could think about was how much I hated that it took that much effort to keep from looking.
Just pointing that out. The OP did not look at the girls, and did his best to ignore them, and in doing so he got a panic attack. I mean, I could be wrong, but that is what I understood.
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