Triple Bogey said:
my attitude as come from 25 years of looking at photographs of myself pulling stupid faces and looking like I have either just got up or look as miserable as sin.
If somebody points a camera at me I turn away.
On some night out a few years, somebody took a photo of me and said 'look at this' and I wouldn't look, I turned my head away and refused to look at myself. Somebody took some photo's at this other night out and put them on facebook. I couldn't delete them. I went to bed and wept for 2 hours. So yeah it bothers me. I avoid reflections of myself in windows as well.
That's exactly my point. You are so focused on how you look to yourself, that you don't seem to want to consider that other people may not have the same opinion. Not everyone will think you are attractive, but I can assure you that some people will. And while some may not find you attractive, they could still think that you aren't ugly.
I know how hard it is to consider that not everyone shares you opinion about yourself. Believe me, I think most people are delusional when it comes to how I look, but that's MY opinion about myself and I'm entirely too critical of myself.
If you feel that horrible about how you look, it is very likely that it is reflecting out to other people. If you can learn to at least accept how you look (or even take steps to change what you can..not saying plastic surgery here), then you may start seeing that others don't see you as you see yourself.