As an irregular person, I knew I always had problem with smiling whether my family knew about it or not. It pretty obvious when every picture of your child in his whole life has never smile in any of them. I always thought it was weird how a graduation class of 500 students with a nice smile, while I close my mouth and give a smirk.
I came to the cosmetic/dental surgery center today, things were looking great, "they said they were able to fix my smile"...
then...Before this false hope, I always dream that I could smile, and deep down in my heart, I knew it would take a miracle, and that miracle came in the hope that I could share my deepest and darkest secret to my mom, and which I have, and it both a blessing and a curse with the end result.
Well today I expect a new life, a life that I could only dream off...a life full of smile, and it turn out it was just a dream. A dream that anyone beside me can fully enjoy, a dream that exclude from everyone else, a dream that only turn my life into a curse.
Surgery fail, It would take 30 grand to do a very dangerous surgery with a 40% chance that I can even smile (not fully) and will need 2 year of bracelet prior to the surgery. It look like this is the end, the end of all my hope and optimism. I wish I knew what it was like to be able to smile, but I'm going die without ever knowing what it like to be able to smile, to be like everyone else, just don't want to be me.
sorry guys, I can't undo god curse, I did everything, I didn't take my secret to my grave, and this is what I get, (false hope).
I don't think I'll ever believe in miracle again, nor will I ever raise my hope to such a high standard that only bring me more disappointment. In my heart I really feel like dying, I thought these thing were fixable, but there not, and it such a big deal for my confidence, it downright hurting.
Life suck
Chris
I came to the cosmetic/dental surgery center today, things were looking great, "they said they were able to fix my smile"...
then...Before this false hope, I always dream that I could smile, and deep down in my heart, I knew it would take a miracle, and that miracle came in the hope that I could share my deepest and darkest secret to my mom, and which I have, and it both a blessing and a curse with the end result.
Well today I expect a new life, a life that I could only dream off...a life full of smile, and it turn out it was just a dream. A dream that anyone beside me can fully enjoy, a dream that exclude from everyone else, a dream that only turn my life into a curse.
Surgery fail, It would take 30 grand to do a very dangerous surgery with a 40% chance that I can even smile (not fully) and will need 2 year of bracelet prior to the surgery. It look like this is the end, the end of all my hope and optimism. I wish I knew what it was like to be able to smile, but I'm going die without ever knowing what it like to be able to smile, to be like everyone else, just don't want to be me.
sorry guys, I can't undo god curse, I did everything, I didn't take my secret to my grave, and this is what I get, (false hope).
I don't think I'll ever believe in miracle again, nor will I ever raise my hope to such a high standard that only bring me more disappointment. In my heart I really feel like dying, I thought these thing were fixable, but there not, and it such a big deal for my confidence, it downright hurting.
Life suck
Chris