During the part of my life when I was around the age of 10-14 I had so little friends and honestly I deserved it.I earned it.I never TRIED hard enough,if at all to make friends.Even if somebody tried warming up to me I just treated them indifferently I guess.Not rude,but cool like so? what did you say you wanted? Even what childhood friends I had I never tried to keep in touch with them.I never called.Never asked.Even my first bestfriend,the one girl who shared with me everychildhood memory and we were literally stuck at hips for 8 years maybe,I let our friendship die once she was no longer in any of my classes and it's such a pity when I see someone,recognize them (easy!) And think funny how we used to be SO close and now we're strangers.
At some point,I guess I didn't have friends.I did have.But they were all superficial friends,just school mates.We seemed close,always together 4 girls together but I've always known that I was only spending time with my so called friends cause I didn't want to spend it alone at school.I had to.They were what I could find then.So whenever school was off I hardly called any of them.Honestly,they didnt matter much.
Then there was finally that breakthrough in my life,when that new kid stepped into my class.Some sort of gravity was pulling me towards that smiling face,those bright eyes that would light up my mood no matter what.There was something about the girl that made me cannot NOT laugh whenever I look her way.Ahaha she was hilarious to me.
That was the first time I EVER tried to make a friend.In a very weird and fast manner we became very good friends,we started talking,I was never that honest with someone,I wanted the best for her,I geniunely loved her. Course we became bestfriends and I trusted her blindly.She was worth my trust.She is worth my trust.I'm so glad that that we are still bestfriends to the moment.I even left my entire old school and we still talk everyday and I consider her to be my ultimate best friend I have ever made.I never kept intouch with people who were no longer "with me in class" yet somehow our friendship never grows weaker.Even if I don't see her for months on end.It was the first time I had CHOSEN someone.And definitely I couldn't have chosen better than that.
Since then and I have been getting better and better.I am to the moment,every day I am more open,I'm more friendly,I'm less shy,I am nicer,I'm stronger,I have more friends,I work hard to earn them,I work harder to keep them.You wouldn't know what difference remembering that friend's birthday or calling to check on them when u know they're ill or miss school does.These little things are what actually make you a good friend.
And now I'm really glad by how far I've come.I have many friends.There's no worse feeling than not knowing who to call when one friend is busy and you realize you have noone else to call.Or on Friday night you don't know who to go out with.That's depressing.Now that's not an issue anymore.I'm sure you could make friends.Like I said ,just be WILLING to make some effort.It's not hard at all when you are a good person. Ofcourse not everyone gets along with everyone.That's a given.I find some people to be frustrating just by the look of them.They give me that overwhelming impulse to punch their face.Irritating.I just walk away.Hehe.Maybe some people find me irritating too.Who cares? There are always many people out there who'd like you for who you are and it takes no effort to be yourself around them. Just start making friends!There are no limits !
Hehe Sorry If I hurt your eyes with my umm not so long post
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