lilE said:
I have no support system at the moment. Nor do I have friends or a social life. I live by myself. I am literally alone and isolated.
Same here. I usually go weeks without speaking because there is no one for me to speak too. I think I've gone nearly two months one time without speaking at all. The only time I speak is to convey a quick message at the grocery store, Walmart, or Home Depot. Once in awhile someone will speak to me. But, now with wearing masks I don't even feel like making the effort to move my lips. So, I just raise my eye brows or nod to acknowledge the person so they don't get mad at me for ignoring them. When I do speak I have to clear my throat. It takes effort and it's kind of annoying.
Generally I don't like people so it doesn't both me. Sometimes I wonder if at some point I'll loose the ability to speak. It'll be no real loss for me. I would actually like to be deaf too. There is so much noise pollution especially car stereos and barking dogs that it drives me crazy. I checked into getting my ear drums removed. But, there's a high probability that I won't be deaf. I'll just hear even more ringing then I do now. So, I'll just have to deal with all the BS noise because law enforcement and the city chooses to ignore the problem.
In time being alone will become normal for you, then it won't bother you much. You'll stop thinking about it. That really is the key. The more you think about it the more it bothers you. Then you think about it more. Then you think about how everybody else has someone except you, which isn't true. There are a lot of lonely people and people that are alone.
Lonely people try to occupy their time to keep from thinking about it. Some watch tons of movies, enjoy hobbies, or learn something new. Drinking and drugging only makes things worse so avoid that trap.
Exercise is a great thing. From what others have said on here I'm depressed but am in denial. I looked it up and it's probably true. But, I'm healthy and in good shape. I eat well and exercise regularly. So, I usually feel pretty good. Sometimes I think why do I feel so good when the world sucks so much. Ha! ha!
After awhile you'll appreciate being alone. There are MANY advantages to it. Some are fine just having pets. But, I don't even want those. I really don't think I could ever live with another person again. It is so nice to do whatever I want, whenever I want, without any pressure to do or not do something. I come and go as I please without needing to check in with anybody. If I get home late it doesn't matter. The initial stages on being alone were somewhat difficult though. Once in awhile I think about being alone then I realize all the BS I don't have to deal with and get a big smile on my face.
But, if you get to a really bad point seek help. You'll get some happy pills, tricks to stave off depression, and counseling. Other users on this site have done that and it's work well for them.
priscella said:
I figure as I get older ............
Is that even possible? Ha! ha!