Snickers
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When I was a toddler (ard 3 yrs old) I have a boy cousin kissed me on the cheeks.
As I grew older, I entered primary school, there was one guy twin that everyone loves to pair me up with and saying that we are very much compatible with each other. Everytime we talk to each other, my friends (yeah I used to have friends) and classmates would go "Weet, weet, carry on!" and burst into applause.
So when my family started to move, I too, moved to a brand new primary school (This time at the age of 10) . In this school, I had many many encounters with guys expressing interest. There was one guy that was in my art CCA and after playing basketball with his friends, he would stand outside my class windows (we are in different classes) to wait for me to finish classes. He even tried to kiss me once during a break in my art CCA.
Anyways, fast forward to 11 years old, we drifted apart because of all the cooties teasing and I met another good looking guy in my class that always wanted me to play catching with him during recess. He knew my running was lackluster so he gave loads of encouragement to me and even tried to hug and kiss me once...besides him, there was also one guy that whenever I threw insults at him, he didn't wanted to retaliate and instead if other girls do that, he would retaliate them back and he even smiled at me and is always so giving in his offers for food to me.
So I started to go into puberty, having crap loads of pimples and every guy out there started to shun and some even bullied me.
As I entered High School, not knowing that a downfall is about to begin, I had a guy who always topped his class noticing me a lot more often. He admitted that he likes me to his friends but kept keeping a distance from me and sometimes he was even embarrassed to be with me (perhaps because of my awkward appearances)
So a group of girls started to gang up and bullied me.
Anyways that guy moved on to another class, so everyone was drifted apart.
I even got a creepy high school teacher that kept wanting to touch me and even showering me creepy attention that from there, no one help me to ward him off and I deem this as sexual harassment and outright blatant bullying from my class for ignoring the ongoings.
During my last high school years, I got really goodlooking guy liking me but of course that group of girls that bullied me were his friends so they tried all means to prevent me from being attached to him.
Anyways, I suffered from agoraphobia after I graduated from high school and wasted some years of my teenage life staying at home all the time and working in a crap office job that an online friend introduced to me and getting abuse by the boss.
So right now, I am 23 years studying in a college pursing a professional qualifications with 97% of them only girls and working in a crappy fast food job with teenagers and 'losers' and I even got fatter and fatter as the years from then till now.
I even got insulted for my appearance when a group of young guys was dining around there.
I don't have friends or a social life right and spent most of my time at home on the internet, being depressed and sick of life.
I have never gotten into a relationship as you can see, we are either too young, drifted apart or was really shallow.
5 years ago, when I was 18, people say I'd find someone. 5 years later now, I am still the same person except with a crappy job and school and weight gain.
Tell me, has my prime of my life ended already?
As I grew older, I entered primary school, there was one guy twin that everyone loves to pair me up with and saying that we are very much compatible with each other. Everytime we talk to each other, my friends (yeah I used to have friends) and classmates would go "Weet, weet, carry on!" and burst into applause.
So when my family started to move, I too, moved to a brand new primary school (This time at the age of 10) . In this school, I had many many encounters with guys expressing interest. There was one guy that was in my art CCA and after playing basketball with his friends, he would stand outside my class windows (we are in different classes) to wait for me to finish classes. He even tried to kiss me once during a break in my art CCA.
Anyways, fast forward to 11 years old, we drifted apart because of all the cooties teasing and I met another good looking guy in my class that always wanted me to play catching with him during recess. He knew my running was lackluster so he gave loads of encouragement to me and even tried to hug and kiss me once...besides him, there was also one guy that whenever I threw insults at him, he didn't wanted to retaliate and instead if other girls do that, he would retaliate them back and he even smiled at me and is always so giving in his offers for food to me.
So I started to go into puberty, having crap loads of pimples and every guy out there started to shun and some even bullied me.
As I entered High School, not knowing that a downfall is about to begin, I had a guy who always topped his class noticing me a lot more often. He admitted that he likes me to his friends but kept keeping a distance from me and sometimes he was even embarrassed to be with me (perhaps because of my awkward appearances)
So a group of girls started to gang up and bullied me.
Anyways that guy moved on to another class, so everyone was drifted apart.
I even got a creepy high school teacher that kept wanting to touch me and even showering me creepy attention that from there, no one help me to ward him off and I deem this as sexual harassment and outright blatant bullying from my class for ignoring the ongoings.
During my last high school years, I got really goodlooking guy liking me but of course that group of girls that bullied me were his friends so they tried all means to prevent me from being attached to him.
Anyways, I suffered from agoraphobia after I graduated from high school and wasted some years of my teenage life staying at home all the time and working in a crap office job that an online friend introduced to me and getting abuse by the boss.
So right now, I am 23 years studying in a college pursing a professional qualifications with 97% of them only girls and working in a crappy fast food job with teenagers and 'losers' and I even got fatter and fatter as the years from then till now.
I even got insulted for my appearance when a group of young guys was dining around there.
I don't have friends or a social life right and spent most of my time at home on the internet, being depressed and sick of life.
I have never gotten into a relationship as you can see, we are either too young, drifted apart or was really shallow.
5 years ago, when I was 18, people say I'd find someone. 5 years later now, I am still the same person except with a crappy job and school and weight gain.
Tell me, has my prime of my life ended already?