TheAnxiousPain
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Im depressed, lonely and in a dark space
One weird thing LONELINESS made me do, sometimes I go to Walmart parking lot and sit in my car just to get away from the house and to get some air. And while sitting in Walmart I just look at all the people, and the families and friends who all are going inside of walmart and just live through them, like "Wow they are normal and is able to be normal", meanwhile i am damaged, and stuck". I am 24 years old and have nothing but negative messages in my head from a dangerously verbally abusive people that is so hard to shake. I really sit on how these people that walks inside of walmart are human and have issues just like all of us, but they are "living". I don't know how to yet. Money issues is getting in the way, but I am working 24/7 and is saving to move away. But yet and still reality is still eating me alive.
I Yearn so much for a life. I feel so guilty for wanting a life. I feel so guilty for wanting more. My family really done a job
Anyhow, what are the weirdest thing "loneliness" made you do?
One weird thing LONELINESS made me do, sometimes I go to Walmart parking lot and sit in my car just to get away from the house and to get some air. And while sitting in Walmart I just look at all the people, and the families and friends who all are going inside of walmart and just live through them, like "Wow they are normal and is able to be normal", meanwhile i am damaged, and stuck". I am 24 years old and have nothing but negative messages in my head from a dangerously verbally abusive people that is so hard to shake. I really sit on how these people that walks inside of walmart are human and have issues just like all of us, but they are "living". I don't know how to yet. Money issues is getting in the way, but I am working 24/7 and is saving to move away. But yet and still reality is still eating me alive.
I Yearn so much for a life. I feel so guilty for wanting a life. I feel so guilty for wanting more. My family really done a job
Anyhow, what are the weirdest thing "loneliness" made you do?