I think I kinda have a reversed view of myself than what is the norm because, when I look at myself in the mirror (or anywhere else, we all know mirrors lie), I feel really pleased about myself - in other words: I feel really comfortable in my body. I'm chubby, but not obese, and that suits me just fine, as I've always been that way. But people still view me as
fat or
obese. Not many say it to my face because I look strong as well as big (So I've been told by many, and I agree), so I guess they're afraid I'm gonna beat them up lol (when people call me fat I often threaten to do so, and they shut up and apologize).
When people say stuff like that, it lowers my self esteem, and I realize that I never can get a girlfriend by looking the way I do, and that makes me really sad, because as I said - I like my body as it is. I mean, of course I wouldn't mind being slim and muscular, but I can manage without. I always have.
At the age I'm in now, It's expected that I've had sex and have a girlfriend (or had at least one)! Pretty average teenage worries I suppose, but they still depress me, because most of my friends that are around my age have already done it (or so they say). I'm also terribly ashamed about the size of my wiener, as it's very tiny (please don't laugh lol. It's okay if you did, I know I would
), so I'm afraid that if I finally get a girlfriend, I might not be able to satisfy her. As I said, pretty common thought's for a teenager (I've read about it on the internet and in magazines), but they still worry me you know? I'm just afraid that I'll be alone for the rest of my life. I have friends and family that love me, but still... you know?
