In a nutshell, i am a 17 year old girl who doesn't have a life.
I just sit in front of my laptop screen, go on facebook and see how much fun everybody is having. i'm never invited anywhere, ever.
The only time somebody texts me is if they need help on their homework, a boy has NEVER texted me before. I've never been on a date. It'd be nice to feel wanted and loved for once, I've only known loneliness and rejection.
I try to contribute in group conversations at school, but whenever I speak it comes out rushed and muddled, and it really fustrates me because I know that I can speak normally around my family, so why not these people? Why do I care about their judgements?! I know I can be so so much better, socially and confidence wise, but I lack self confidence. I just don't know how to have confidence in myself anymore.
I have tried applying for a job and my application was rejected, but a girl I know at my school in the year below just snapped the job i hoped to get in an instant. I don't get it, when i try to make an effort, it's usually a lost cause.
I see girls having fun, living their lives, getting perfect grades, going out, partying, having crushes and boyfriends, take photos, basically loving life and here i am stuck at home wishing i could be something more, i feel like i am wasting my youth.
Who decided that i don't like to go out and have fun too? Am i too boring to be associated with? people usually ask me why i am down. i desperatly want to tell them, but then if i did i just think that i'd sound clingy and pathetic, also i cannot handle rejection.
I don't want to force myself upon people, so i leave them to it to have fun, while i hang around with my mom, dad and sister at home in the weekends.
All this has caused me to have low self confidence with myself, i just don't think that i am an attractive or worthy person to be around anymore, i don't think that i could make a difference, so i just stay by myself and don't make the effort anymore to be friends with anyone anymore because all they do to me is forget about me in the end, i hate rejection so much.
Yet other girls have it so easy. People want to be them, they look up to them for guidence, they are invited to the hottest parties, where the stylish clothes ect, and when i look at myself, i am the shy, unconfident girl who wished she had a life.
I am sorry if i hae dragged this on, and if you have read all of this, i am impressed, because seriously i don't think my life story is interesting to anyone, because i think it is a whole pile of crap if i am totally honest. If you give good advice, i would be eternally indebted and grateful to you. Thank you.
I just sit in front of my laptop screen, go on facebook and see how much fun everybody is having. i'm never invited anywhere, ever.
The only time somebody texts me is if they need help on their homework, a boy has NEVER texted me before. I've never been on a date. It'd be nice to feel wanted and loved for once, I've only known loneliness and rejection.
I try to contribute in group conversations at school, but whenever I speak it comes out rushed and muddled, and it really fustrates me because I know that I can speak normally around my family, so why not these people? Why do I care about their judgements?! I know I can be so so much better, socially and confidence wise, but I lack self confidence. I just don't know how to have confidence in myself anymore.
I have tried applying for a job and my application was rejected, but a girl I know at my school in the year below just snapped the job i hoped to get in an instant. I don't get it, when i try to make an effort, it's usually a lost cause.
I see girls having fun, living their lives, getting perfect grades, going out, partying, having crushes and boyfriends, take photos, basically loving life and here i am stuck at home wishing i could be something more, i feel like i am wasting my youth.
Who decided that i don't like to go out and have fun too? Am i too boring to be associated with? people usually ask me why i am down. i desperatly want to tell them, but then if i did i just think that i'd sound clingy and pathetic, also i cannot handle rejection.
I don't want to force myself upon people, so i leave them to it to have fun, while i hang around with my mom, dad and sister at home in the weekends.
All this has caused me to have low self confidence with myself, i just don't think that i am an attractive or worthy person to be around anymore, i don't think that i could make a difference, so i just stay by myself and don't make the effort anymore to be friends with anyone anymore because all they do to me is forget about me in the end, i hate rejection so much.
Yet other girls have it so easy. People want to be them, they look up to them for guidence, they are invited to the hottest parties, where the stylish clothes ect, and when i look at myself, i am the shy, unconfident girl who wished she had a life.
I am sorry if i hae dragged this on, and if you have read all of this, i am impressed, because seriously i don't think my life story is interesting to anyone, because i think it is a whole pile of crap if i am totally honest. If you give good advice, i would be eternally indebted and grateful to you. Thank you.