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Op here, thank you ladyforsaken and zero for your insight. I went to talk with the school counselor today, and I tried my best to sum everything up for him. We are supposed to meet again next Friday, so I will talk with him about what could be causing my emptiness. I feel like I can get through...

I am really at the end of my rope here. The emptiness that I feel has been growing since the beginning of the semester, and it should not be happening. I have a loving family and a great group of friends who I am fairly sure care about me. It sickens me to say that I do not feel much emotion...

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Hey everyone, its been a while. I started college back in August, and it has been the most life changing thing that has ever happened to me. Back in high school and middle school, I had some serious problems making new friends and the friends that I did have were either incredibly abusive or...

So, after talking with my therapist for a while, I agree with him that I judge people way too much. It's something to with my incredibly low self esteem, though I'm not sure why. It's always physical appearances: "Oh, he looks like a meathead jock" or "Oh, she looks like a ditzy *****". I don't...

So, our school had its prom on Saturday. I didn't go because I do not feel comfortable being in a large group of people, especially a group of people that I am not too found of. A few people have asked me about prom, and all of them think I am crazy for not going. Even my friends at school think...

I was thinking about this last night, and I came to the same conclusion: I need to break. I need to show someone what I really am, whether I be monster or not. If I don't, I am going to die trapped in my head, alone. So, I ask this question: how do I break myself down?

I am terrified to be intimate with the people I know. I realized this after I was reflecting on why I was pushing my friends out of my life, which also traveled into the realm of family. I feel like people will misinterpret who I am if I tell them. They would think I was crazy or a monster, and...

I guess, but I would feel like a creep if I showed these feelings and she didn't want them.:(

@AfterDark I've just been trying to talk with her at school these days. It's really hard to get her to talk sometimes because of how quiet she gets. Though I have been trying to look at her as a friend instead of a love interest, though my mind has other ideas. @perfanoff I am too afraid to...

We have known each other throughout high school, but she had always been an aquantince. She is one of the few people who will actually talk to me, and I have always thought it strange that she would even talk to me. Well, mostly it was just acknowledging my presence and making small talk, but...

Its a question I ask myself everyday. I don't like me too much, so I never got the chance to find out what I am really like. I want to understand why I do the things I do, but whenever I ask myself I never get a clear answer. I feel so lost and confused. What do I want from me? Why won't I say?

So my doctor started me on Paxil last Wendseday. I know I am not supposed to really see results for a while, but I will say I feel a little different. I cannot exactly describe it, but it feels good, and its a little calming. For the first time in a while, I feel pretty good about life. I can...

I hate my mind quite often. Its the thing that has helped me so, yet it hurts me bad. All it takes is the slightest disturbance, and my mind is all over it. It consumes me, and then it kills me. I die and become a corpse, walking about in a sea of noisy blurs and monsters. It scares me. Then...

Let me just throw this out there: I'm a very weird person. I do weird things, I say weird things, and people think I'm a weirdo. And you know what? I am okay with this; I like being weird and I don't want to be anything else. But, sometimes I feel bad because I confuse people. Most people just...

Hello everyone, Just thought I should give myself a formal introduction. My name is Paranoid Android. I am currently a senior in high school and I aspire to become either a programmer or an electrical engineer. I am a big fan of Radiohead and the Smashing Pumpkins. I am movie and video game...

Thanks everyone for the support! I talked with my school counselor, and she has taken care of the bully, so hopefully everything should be good now. If it isn't, I can always just talk to her about it.

Before I go into what happened today, let me just give you a quick rundown of what has broken me. -I was bullied all through middle school -The three main bullies followed me to high school -Had a mental breakdown freshman year and developed DPD -Mental breakdown was also an existential crisis...