Never the Princess
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I live in the beautiful city of New Orleans. There, some of the most beautiful homes can found. Sometimes, I'll drive through the Marigny and the French Quarter, and I always see this one house that leaves me in awe. It looks like a sparkly blue and white castle with lavender shutters and a glowing garden. My reality is my imagination and vice-versa; I fuse the two together. I want to feel like a princess.
I celebrated my 18th birthday two days ago. My best friend, knowing me very well, gave me a fairy princess wand as a "gag gift." For a while, it made me feel special and important. But after a while, I started having doubts. I realized I didn't deserve it. Only pretty girls are allowed to be princesses, and the fact that I was deluding myself would only cause myself greater strife in the future.
I'm not sure what it is about me, but I can't take a compliment. I have lots of friends, and I'd say I'm pretty smart, but personality, wit, generosity and intelligence only gets one so far.
Is it so much to hope for that big girls are allowed to feel pretty? Even only for a day? Because despite my large outward appearance, I have very petite and girly habits and quirks and over-sensitivity. I want to feel like a girl.
I tend to ramble and jump from one thing to another; I apologize. My mind is a vortex.
I celebrated my 18th birthday two days ago. My best friend, knowing me very well, gave me a fairy princess wand as a "gag gift." For a while, it made me feel special and important. But after a while, I started having doubts. I realized I didn't deserve it. Only pretty girls are allowed to be princesses, and the fact that I was deluding myself would only cause myself greater strife in the future.
I'm not sure what it is about me, but I can't take a compliment. I have lots of friends, and I'd say I'm pretty smart, but personality, wit, generosity and intelligence only gets one so far.
Is it so much to hope for that big girls are allowed to feel pretty? Even only for a day? Because despite my large outward appearance, I have very petite and girly habits and quirks and over-sensitivity. I want to feel like a girl.
I tend to ramble and jump from one thing to another; I apologize. My mind is a vortex.