Estreen
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I wish I were more interesting, and found something to make me stand out a bit more. There's something inside of me that just doesn't click; something's off. I feel almost as though I'm disconnected from the rest of humanity, or missing a key circuit or something.
I want to get myself to the point where I stop apologizing for who I am; there are plenty of people out there who are worse off than I, and they make no apologies for who they are or what they do, and it's time I started sticking up for myself a bit more when criticized or put down.
I'm still missing something as well... There's some sort of passion missing. No real big interests or hobbies. The only thing I've really had to focus on in the past 4 years is my relationship with my boyfriend, which is my only real accomplishment in life thus far. I've had little to no interest in school, talents (or lack thereof), interests, etc. Seems like there's nothing/not much to me. I'd like to have SOMETHING like sports or get hooked on a specific anime/manga, or get into collecting something; I don't care for the specifics so much as I just want something to get involved in that takes my interest, and so far I haven't really found much that does hold my interest, other than a love of comedy films n' stand-up comedy. =P Which, I suppose that is one thing that I do have interest in, but nothing I'm passionate about or anything that one can really get into. I'm hoping to not only gain a better understanding of myself, but to find something that I can find like-minded people to share/discuss it with.
I'm tempted to apologize for the rambling-ness of this post, but I'm going to refrain, as I stated above that I need to stop doing just that.
I want to get myself to the point where I stop apologizing for who I am; there are plenty of people out there who are worse off than I, and they make no apologies for who they are or what they do, and it's time I started sticking up for myself a bit more when criticized or put down.
I'm still missing something as well... There's some sort of passion missing. No real big interests or hobbies. The only thing I've really had to focus on in the past 4 years is my relationship with my boyfriend, which is my only real accomplishment in life thus far. I've had little to no interest in school, talents (or lack thereof), interests, etc. Seems like there's nothing/not much to me. I'd like to have SOMETHING like sports or get hooked on a specific anime/manga, or get into collecting something; I don't care for the specifics so much as I just want something to get involved in that takes my interest, and so far I haven't really found much that does hold my interest, other than a love of comedy films n' stand-up comedy. =P Which, I suppose that is one thing that I do have interest in, but nothing I'm passionate about or anything that one can really get into. I'm hoping to not only gain a better understanding of myself, but to find something that I can find like-minded people to share/discuss it with.
I'm tempted to apologize for the rambling-ness of this post, but I'm going to refrain, as I stated above that I need to stop doing just that.