Naleena
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If your partner had an affair, how would you react? Could you forgive him or her?
Lonesome Crow said:I forgave sherry for a lot of things. That woman was so pyscho *****,
she turned around an accused me of having an affair with the guy's wife. (Michelle).
(Michelle and I we're close friends. She was married. I was bascailly married to Sherry.
I just had a plutonic relationship with her.)
I actaully asked Sherry to go talk to Michelle when all of that honeysuckle happened.
Sherry was arguing with me about money so she can go gambling...
I asked her to go talk to a friend or another woman, so we would stop fighting...not fresia her husband.
Michelle went out of town that night.
Sherry actaully blames me for sending her over there....Errrr Wtf ????
The accusations and interigations went on for months it drove me up te fucken walls.
After 2 months of that honeysuckle..the fucken dramma, the endless, sleepless nights of her wanting
to drink herself to death and interigating me. I simply gave in and told her whatever the
fresia she wanted to hear, so she would shut the fresia up, so I can get some sleep.
She then turnned around and went ape honeysuckle on me even more while i was at home
trunned around and used that honeysuckle against me....shear madness.
Yet when I was at work she'll call me or come into my work and threaten sueicide.
She would also hond me or stalked me..thinking I was going to break up with her or cheat on her.
In other words she was afriad i was going to fresia Michelle...like get into crazy partner swaping or some honeysuckle
becuase Michelle and I were closed and our partner's cheated on us. Somewhere alone the line of,
payback is a *****!
Evidently...there's other women or people in my life at that piont.....Jenni.
Jenni and I didn't have any sexual relationship at that time. She was my friend.
I talked to Jenni alot becuase i was going crazy from all the fucken chaos.
I became very, very ill. I couldn't eat. I couldn't sleep. I couldn't focus on my work.
I just wanted peace...so I can get some rest inorder for me to think striaght, after a while.
My body constantly ran a fever and my head felt like it was going to explode. My heart
was broken. I was torn from head to toe. My thoughts and emotions got scrambled as
if she fucken pushed all the verious button of a blender.
I feared for Sherry's life as i did for mine. The guilt, shame and madness of it all.
Some of the honeysuckle that happened on this site reminds me of what Sherry did.(just a taste
of it)..the constant instigation of whatever the fucken piont was.
How did I feel inside about the matter of her cheating on me ?? It hurts.
I still have a lot of mental and emotional scars from the madness of it all.
Sherry have yet to say a word to me about anything that she had done or put us through,
yet Sherry' just so fucken holier than thou. I'm her secrets...I have all the details.
Sherry continue to use me as her escape goat..
Tities sells...yes it dose.
Forgiveness ?
As a child I was taught forgivness was about writing off all depts of a person that
trapassed me....Some people like to run up more fucken depts and more fucken depts.
When i got into recovery..I learned that forgiveness was for me...I forgave the other
person so that I don't carry the hurt and pain inside of me.
Even if I don't approve of the actions of the other's party.
I do not have power or control over the other party.
After Sherry...it's a cluster fresia either way.
Right, wrong, or indfference, ....I have to let go of it all.
The fucken nightmair and insanity of it all.
I just want to get well.
I seek my healing from god...I hope there's god.
I don't know if anyone can understands me or give a fucken honeysuckle either way. I hope god dose.
I get alot of triggers writing all of this honeysuckle...I'm processing it and letting go of it.
In other words....it hurts like a mother ******..
Anywho, I remember my minister telling me " you're child of god michael...don't ever forget that"
before i met Sherry.
Nyktimos said:I have serious trust issues that probably stem from my father having an affair when I was very young. I've lost at least two relationships through lack of trust on my part. I'm now in a relationship with someone I trust totally but I'm not in love with her. I think I finally 'get it'. I'd rather be in a relationship with someone who I love but who might give in to temptation. If she did, I would want to forgive her if she wanted to continue our relationship.
But in practice, I know if I was with someone like that I would be the same jealous ******* I've always been and ruin both of our lives the way I always do.
Van Hooligan X said:if it happened to me, well lets just say angry van isn't a nice person AT ALL to be around...
and i'd have to break his legs too ^_^ fairs fair
Naleena said:You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you don't trust enough.- Frank Crane
Lonesome Crow said:Van Hooligan X said:if it happened to me, well lets just say angry van isn't a nice person AT ALL to be around...
and i'd have to break his legs too ^_^ fairs fair
mmmmm...I almost killed my best friend becuase of this honeysuckle.
It was so..so fucken retarded why they did it, I fucken swear.
We were double dating..He had his girl. I had mine.
But no....lets just fucke that honeysuckle up..wtf ???
He was my BEST FREIND...ffs.
We had to fucken switched partners becuase of that honeysuckle..wtf ??
It was so..so fucken wierd...His gf Jackie and i would hang out of
that..trying to understand the fucken honeysuckle. Jackie was very hurt
and cried all the time...
One night while Jackie and I were cruzing..we ran into him...
i jumped out of my fucken truck and almost killed his fucken
ass...We just had to do some fucken seriouse throw downs.
Luckiely back in the days it was just man to man fist fights.
I was so pissed off at him. i hitted him so fucken hard
it knocked him on his ass...Then I kicked him in the face.
Peeple had to pull me off of him. i was so pissed it was like I was in a different world.
To have to relive it decades later...kind of left a bad taste in
my mouth a little bit. I thought HS bullshit was over.
Melanie said:Welp..
although we live in a technological society, we humans still have certain biological predispositions and urges, which includes lust. In my opinion, I don't believe that humans are biologically monogamous creatures, so if my partner ever cheated on me, I would "forgive" them because it's understandable. Society puts so much pressure on people to behave and think a certain way, and in a sense, it is unrealistic. We are only human.
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