First off, sorry to the folks on msn and you PM'rs! I've been offline for ages, I've been in counselling sessions recently.
Anyway,... she (councilor) persuaded me to try the support group option out. I really didn't want to do that, I even decided I wouldn't try that, long before seeing her, but yeah, I caved in like the wimp I am.
This won't come as a huge surprise but...I met someone! And yeah, it was another lust at first sight type of thing again, but I stopped myself before it got out of hand because I knew it was ridiculous at that moment when I hadn't even talked to the guy.
When we did get a chance to talk, he was surprisingly nice and easy to talk to. He suffers from depression, he didn't want to be there either but, like me, he was persuaded to give it a go.
2 days later we talked online, just as "friends" (or as close a friend you can be after knowing someone for 2 days) I didn't hint or give any sign that I liked him at all, I'm careful about that usually. Most of the people in the past I've liked never even knew, and still don't.
I saw him again last Friday, we spent the whole time together, and it was great, even if it was nothing more than friends and even if he didn't like me in the same way.
Then everything changed yesterday on msn-
him: "I'm glad you decided to try out the group aswell, we're friends right?"
me: "Yeah, of course"
him: "Actually, I hope you don't mind me being forward but, if I went out (dated) white/Caucasian girls, I would have asked you out, Soph"
Ehhhh? I think he was expecting me to be grateful or something
Maybe I just don't care about race but, even so, why even tell me that? He could've just said nothing and continued to be friends, he didn't even know I liked him.
Heh, of all the faults he could've found in me, he picks the one thing I can't (and of course, wouldn't anyway) change. THEN he tells me he would've wanted more, if only he dated white girls.
So it made me wonder, is race a big deal or even a issue with you all? I've never really thought about it, myself. If I like someone, I like someone.
But I am quite simple...
Anyway,... she (councilor) persuaded me to try the support group option out. I really didn't want to do that, I even decided I wouldn't try that, long before seeing her, but yeah, I caved in like the wimp I am.
This won't come as a huge surprise but...I met someone! And yeah, it was another lust at first sight type of thing again, but I stopped myself before it got out of hand because I knew it was ridiculous at that moment when I hadn't even talked to the guy.
When we did get a chance to talk, he was surprisingly nice and easy to talk to. He suffers from depression, he didn't want to be there either but, like me, he was persuaded to give it a go.
2 days later we talked online, just as "friends" (or as close a friend you can be after knowing someone for 2 days) I didn't hint or give any sign that I liked him at all, I'm careful about that usually. Most of the people in the past I've liked never even knew, and still don't.
I saw him again last Friday, we spent the whole time together, and it was great, even if it was nothing more than friends and even if he didn't like me in the same way.
Then everything changed yesterday on msn-
him: "I'm glad you decided to try out the group aswell, we're friends right?"
me: "Yeah, of course"
him: "Actually, I hope you don't mind me being forward but, if I went out (dated) white/Caucasian girls, I would have asked you out, Soph"
Ehhhh? I think he was expecting me to be grateful or something
Maybe I just don't care about race but, even so, why even tell me that? He could've just said nothing and continued to be friends, he didn't even know I liked him.
Heh, of all the faults he could've found in me, he picks the one thing I can't (and of course, wouldn't anyway) change. THEN he tells me he would've wanted more, if only he dated white girls.
So it made me wonder, is race a big deal or even a issue with you all? I've never really thought about it, myself. If I like someone, I like someone.
But I am quite simple...