lmao...
I friend and i were standing in line for an all day concert.
Couple of babes had a picknic basket with goodies in it.
They invieted us to have a picknic with them.
My truck broke down on near an intersection a couple of weeks ago...late at night too.
A guy ran over and offer to help me push my truck into a parking lot.
I was sitting on a bus once on my way home to visit my parents. I decided to take
one of those road trips but didn't drive my car. I was minding my own bussiness
and a hawt babe sat next to me. We ended up spending weeks together at the beach
pretending like we are on a honey moon...i had her bags of goodies too.
I started woking at a car wash when I was kids...I had just moved to San Degio.
The owner...gave me a job..with good pay too..All i had to do was spray off cars
before they enter the washer...It was around the conner from a UDSU. I flirt with babes
all day long.. Imagine that... some babes ask me to help them put their car in gear...
Lmao..as if she didn't know how...she drove her car there...ffs..
Anyway...My boss ask me about my situations..He told me to go do security at another
car wash he was building. He said he had special high dollar tiles that needed to be secured..lmao
He paid me $300 for sitting on my ass for a couple of days. He also told me i was only allowed to work there for
only a year...and that i needed to enroll myself into school if i wanted to work there.
He was a very nice man..He wore shorts and a hawiian shirt into work to collect his money and takes off..lmao
He made a very great impression on me...He showed me that not all rich, successful millionairs were slave driving
ruthless greedy heartless pricks...
The first itme I met Jenni in person she bought me home made cupcakes.
It touched me a lot..becuase for the longest time no one went out of thier way to do anything for me.
She actaully took 1 hours of her time to do something for me..LOL..Cupcakes is Jenni's nickname.
I bascailly fell in love with her the first time I saw her..Even though I spoken to her before.
I didn't think i would ever meet her in person. The last time I spoken to Jenni before that was when
she was only a recieptionist and that she had gotten laid off of that job.
When i first got clean and sober...I was sleeping in my car during the summer.
I was really, really out of it...I had my house but I had the heebee geebees becuase I was paraniod...lmao
Anyway, I detoxed on top of a hill at a local park for a couple of weeks.
( it is not recommended that you do that..people died from detoxing off of drugs and alcohol becuase of the shock)
A guy I never met before..stayed with me to keep an eye on me. He talked to me and took me to lunch.
He took me to meetings..bascailly hung out with me so I wouldn't hang myself in the process of detoxing.lol
He bascailly saved my life.
After I was relaesed from a hospital of trying to commit suicide. I was still very dysfunctional and teeder todding
on the fence. Lori bascaily took me into her home and life.
She tried to love me back to life as best she could.
She bascailly became my wife....a wife that i wish my ex-wf was.
She did anything and everything for me. Lori was a very beautiful woman inside and out.
But I was so messed up in the head...I didn't want to live or felt like I deserve her love.
She would go swimming with me everyday. She would take me out to nature and walk with me.
She would take me dancing, make love to me and let me drive her car and she drive my car so i would
feel like I was married to her. She'd hold me and wipe the tears from my eyes.
She took me home to introduce me to her family.
She did everything in her powers that she possibly could to showed me that life was worth living.
She was just so fucken nice. I couldn't accept it. i was so afriad of being loved.
Plus I had this crazy notion that i was going to hell no matter what I did...after all i tried to killed myself.
Plus my belief at that time was that it was an ultimate sin if I get a deviorce. Then my wife finally filed
for a devioced..it was kind of messed up becuase i thought i was living in sin living with Lori.
Yet my wife and I had been seperated for 3 months already and she was being a total ***** to me...
One mintue my wife tell me she loves me and the next it was like total fucken insanity....It drove me fucken nutz.
I had this crazy obsession of not getting a deviorce no matter what..not so much that i was obsessed over my ex-wf.
I love my ex-wf very much at the sametime I fucken hated her as much I love her...
I was really, really messed up in the head..Lori tried to get me past that fucken insanity of guilt and shame Bullshit.
Sometimes I regret for leaving Lori and not recognizing how fucken sick I was.
but I'll never forget Lori...looking back at it now. Love was always there for me in front of me even though
I was so fucken blinde to it.
Lori also made a very big impression in my life...when I feel bad..bad sometimes. when it gets very dark sometimes.
If memories of Lori comes into my concious...I know someone loves me inspite of me and everything.
In other words...I know I deserved to be loved even when I don't feel it or see it. I know there's love inspite of it all.
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I used to take my two step duaghters to go feed homeless people at a local park every Sunday.
We would go to the store..purhase food. Make a brownbag lunch bag...a sandwish, a fruit and a soda.
The girls all also help me hand them out. The girls were very will behave because of that experince.
They became greatful for what they have...even though I spoil them with toys and whatever they wanted.
eventaully the girls knew I would get them what they wanted...even if they did get it right away.
They actaully stopped whining in stores and started playing with toys they already have.
The 5 year old actaully came home oneday becuase she didn't want to be around her friends that were being
mean to people. I couldn't preach it to the girls...I had to show them.
Try to defind gratitude to a 5 year old...lmao.
I gave a young couple the last of my money i had in my pocket...only $50
They were strained and looked hungery. I just told them i hope thier lives
get better and never give up. My ex-gf got mad at me...becuase we were broke.
Oh will...she lost $1200 the night before gambling our lives away.
I gave a young person my personal guitar that I had for almost 10 years.
it was the only guitar I had at that time. Not the most expensive in the world $500
I asked her want she wanted out of life and what her dreams was...
She told me want it was...I gave her my guitar so she could follow her dream.
I gave another Kid my Z28. I had 3 automobiles at that time.
He said he didn't have a ride but was looking for work...
He walked to my place of employment oneday looking for work sweating..
We didn't have any opening at that time. I told him to come get my car
and wished him good luck in his pursuit of happiness in his life.
I took in a 15 year old that i barely knew for my nieghbor's kid.
He didn't want to go home becuase he was having a lot problems with is parents and the trouble he
was getting himself into. He almost had to be sent to prison or jail.
His mom and I would keep in contacts..just to ease her worries.
He spent 3-4 months living with me. He's a millionair now.
I built a R/C flying model for one of my nieghbor's kid. it took me over a month.
I repair an R/C car for some 16 year old kid that lived around the conner from me.
He just show up at my door oneday and asked me to help him fix his toy...errrr wtf ??
He saw me playing with my R/C car...lmao
He's currently in a real racing car team...He has sponsors and travel the states to
different races. I saw him last month. He was so happy to see me and told me what he
is doing with his life. He's only 22.