IgnoredOne said:
I understand your focus on your health, as you mentioned that you were close to death before. Its only when you've lost something or come close to losing something do you really come to appreciate its importance, and I have the feeling that you've definitely experienced that. I admit that I'm not that great at staying healthy myself as I'm nursing a small sniffle myself right now and I intentionally dose myself on caffiene to induce mood changes, but I can completely appreciate what you've wrote.
That said, sometimes I wonder if I really care that much. The candle that burns twice as bright burns half as long, so I have relatively little hesitation at trading away future years of my life to accomplish something. Immortality is found in our works and in the people we affect, I feel.
Beyond that, I'm very happy that my journal was able to inspire someone else to start something. I should ask, too - do you work out, and if so, how do you do so?
Regards,
IO
PS: Caldari Warlord? Tsk. Join the Amarr and realize your true destiny.
Yes, what you say is true. Maybe not in exactly the way your thinking, but close enough.
As far as this whole candle thing. I think this quote (that I too have heard) is crap. I think you can burn brighter longer if you have good health. It just depends on what your doing. We are a biological life form that self repairs, not a candle. Did you know that in some cases young children who lose limbs can even grow partial limbs back that they lose? Kinda like a star fish. Bet you didn't know that. Or so I have heard at least. I am sure it depends what your refuring to. Can't really say specifics since been a long time since I have read about it.
Generally I will just run or speed walk for lower body and use free weights for upper. If you’re feeling playful you can totally just screw around with free weights. Machines can make a person disproportionate and miss muscles.
Lol, if you do a little research you will actually realize I am Minmatar. But I fly a lot of caldari ships. So, in the spirit of all Minmatar. "All Amarr MUST DIE"!!!
Anyways. I haven't said much over the last several days. Haven’t had much to report. For 2-3 days I tried stopping SAMe to see what would happen. To get an idea if I was taking too much or something. It wasn't really a very good idea. Things slipped a bit during the days I wasn’t taking it. I can try again now just taking a lower dose since some stuff I ordered came in, but I think now that I have adjusted that going back to the 800mg I was on for a long time before might be the way to go. I will continue to experiment for a while before I add anything else. Though B-Complex should be added relatively soon, because they play a role in several of SAMe’s reactions. I also am in dire need of a way to force myself to sleep “deeply” on command. Something I failed utterly at solving in the past.
I have walked so far a total of about 5 times. Most recently I walked for possibly 1-2 hours. I haven’t really been timing it. Just watching TV in passing, a couple hour shows went by. I was too tired those days when I didn’t take anything and don’t feel up to it every day. Starting to feel less concerned with just keeling over from overdoing it. Also did some upper body. Basically just curls. Nothing to serious yet, but the lactic acid is definitely out in force. Hurt’s just to move some parts. Maybe this time I can figure out what I was doing before that made it so I was almost never sore, no matter what.
For several days a few weeks ago I could hardly sleep at all. I feel I haven’t pointed this out clearly enough and need to make good mention of it. Best I can figure my body was flooded with many chemicals it was lacking and it took several days for things to even out. This of course is just a guess, I would be hard pressed to prove it. Knowing how the body likes to recycle things and turn one thing into another it’s probably a pretty accurate guess. Things seem to be going back to my usual problems with sleeping. I will be tired for chunks of time and not always able to sleep, but can get around 8 hours of light sleep in here and there. I generally sleep 8 hours ever 18-30 hours, but it fluctuates wildly. Sometimes I swear I am up only 10-12 hours between sleep and other times it seems to be almost 20 hours. Wish I could force myself to a 24-hour schedule. Something I haven’t been able to stick to easily most of my life. I do have goodly chunks of time where I feel much better then I obviously did back before I was taking SAMe. I will be trying something new fairly soon. I ordered 500mg L-Tryptophan capsules and a sleep formula that has pretty much all the good stuff I know of in it (see below for links). I don’t really recognize Bupleurum, Magnolia Bark (hmm I think I know this, blood sugar thing?), Peony, and Jujube extract. Everything else I am at least somewhat familiar with. I should be cautious with mixing them due to the 5-HTP present in the sleep formula. Both are closely related and precursors to serotonin. I have heard of Dr. Ray Sahelian, M.D. before. I have read a book or two of his and have yet to read anything that I could definitely say I outright disagree with. Everything he says seems to be in league with or at least in the ballpark of what others also say. Hopefully he has the sense to have quality products. For now I will assume that they are since I have no reason to think otherwise. Maybe he is just greedy; it can always be hard to tell since quality products are always an issue. Crap products would make him more money. Usually larger better know brands who have a name for themselves and that go under voluntary product testing are the safer bet.
http://www.physicianformulas.com/store/Scripts/prodView.asp?idproduct=154
http://www.physicianformulas.com/store/Scripts/prodView.asp?idproduct=274
Many times those brands (some, not all, it depends) sold in main mega stores like Wal-Mart, Wal-Greens, and Target are outright garbage. They use the cheapest chemical forms of ingredients and are of such poor quality often they appear to do nothing at all. So if a person takes these and forms an opinion based upon them. Well, I personally wonder if it’s not intentionally done by mainstream medicine in some way that I have never really tried to figure out. Like perhaps they are owned and operated by people who are just out to scam people. Many members of mainstream medicine (not all) hate supplements. They are basically trained to. Though some tell people not to take things, but actually in truth take stuff themselves (the twits). They (Big Pharma and the AMA) know full well that healthy people are less likely to seek medical care and it cuts into their profit margins. It’s better to keep people on the edge of outright sickness so that they can take them for all they are worth. Which is why some of their treatments for some things are outright dubious. Some, not all. It depends what it is.
I really need some way to basically force myself to sleep deeply on a routine. If only a sledgehammer would work. I always seem to sleep so lightly. I almost never dream which makes me wonder if I ever reach the deeper stages. I have yet to order more Valerian root to try that old method. I feel certain if I could force deep sleep (without nightmarish side effects) many things would near magically straighten out. For the record I am at least partially immune to most sleeping pills that I have tried. The exception to which is ambien, which is a nightmare. Helped with sleep for about a week and failed there after. Lead to memory problems and what seemed to be what could best be described as the effects of 24/7 drunkenness until I realized it had to go. Felt good and started getting addicted to the ******* trash. It had other effects as well that I have no way to account for. Other then a hallucination or two. Many people abuse ambien for this specific reason as it can induce hallucinations. It took me months to start to feel like my memory and ability to think straight were fully returned. It’s been about 7-8 years since I had this experience. Back when I thought mainstream medicine really could help. Before I spent long hours researching things looking for answers and explanations to things I had experienced. I won’t go through that honeysuckle again.
I think I have started recalling what exactly it was that lead to what I can only call my slow collapse about 2 years ago. I think I had made the judgment that it was L-Tyrosine and other things I was taking that were the main cause of things being so much better. So if I recall correctly I was reducing my dose of SAMe and replacing it with L-Methionine. An amino acid that is closely related, but in no way the same thing. Basically it is a building block used to create SAMe. The reason for this was cost along with the idea that I was not certain at that time that it was doing all that much.
I joined several health groups on Myspace. Was looking to see if Mike Adams/Health Ranger had a group linked to his website, but so far I have been unable to find one. Right off the bat I ran across an article raising the issue of the PH of distilled water being possibly acidic. Something that had not occurred to me. I have always assumed it would be around 7. I tried using PH strips on this water, but am not sure they are working correctly. It’s a topic I need to find more out about. I have my doubts that these people have any idea what they are talking about. I seem to recall doing research before, but I can remember nothing specific.
For anyone wanting to research SAMe. It is usually represented as SAM-e on websites. Otherwise you end up searching “same”. It’s chemical name is S-Adenosyl L-Methionine or S-Adenosyl Methionine. It’s actually naturally produced in the body.
Hmmm, speaking of which. I seem to have forgotten how synthetic amino acids are represented. D-Methionine?
Yep, I seem to remember it right. No L-, as I recall, usually still means the natural form where as D- before some substances means they are the man made version of that substance and NOT the same thing. Structurally they can be very different.