ElevenHours
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I used to get confused on this "Taken for granted" thing but I'm starting to realize that I, myself is taken for granted.
You know the feeling that you're very hurt, and you really want to let go but you just can't? That's where I am. I'm stuck.
I'm still young, so I dunno if I'm mature enough to understand what I'm feeling. I'm going out with this guy who's 4 years ahead of my age. He's not rich, but he's sweet and funny. He's not really good-looking, but he's the kind of guy who you really want to be friends with. We started dating a couple of years ago, and I know that I'm still young, and immature but y'know, I just can't help it whenever my tummy's rumbling and everything's very awkward when I'm with him back then.
We're very different, especially on our state of living. I understand that whenever we'll go out, I'll have to pay for whatever we eat because he can't afford to. I don't wanna say this but it is the best word that could describe him: he's POOR.
As years fly by, I fell for him even more because of his sense of humor, and his sweetness. I bought him things that he wished for, and he just kept on asking. I think that maybe he became used to it that's why he's not saying thank you anymore. But this "I-understand-that-you-want-this-but-you-cant-buy-it-so-i'd-go-get-it-for-you" thing is making me confused.
It's like I became a walking credit card and I just found out that he's cheating on me! I confronted him, and he became that sweet guy again and he swore that he'll never do it again, so I forgave him and I'm lost! I dunno what to do again..
If he wants something from me, like he's asking me to buy him a phone, or he wants to eat lunch outside, and I said NO because I don't have any money left, he won't answer my calls, or txt me.
And today, he didn't tell me that he went out with his friends to go swimming because we talked about doing something this weekend together, that's why I'm really pissed.
I really want to let go, but something's holding me back. I really don't know what to do, when to start, and how much money I have left because this guy's really getting spoiled.
I know that it's my fault, but please, just help me get out of this crap hole.
Pls help.
You know the feeling that you're very hurt, and you really want to let go but you just can't? That's where I am. I'm stuck.
I'm still young, so I dunno if I'm mature enough to understand what I'm feeling. I'm going out with this guy who's 4 years ahead of my age. He's not rich, but he's sweet and funny. He's not really good-looking, but he's the kind of guy who you really want to be friends with. We started dating a couple of years ago, and I know that I'm still young, and immature but y'know, I just can't help it whenever my tummy's rumbling and everything's very awkward when I'm with him back then.
We're very different, especially on our state of living. I understand that whenever we'll go out, I'll have to pay for whatever we eat because he can't afford to. I don't wanna say this but it is the best word that could describe him: he's POOR.
As years fly by, I fell for him even more because of his sense of humor, and his sweetness. I bought him things that he wished for, and he just kept on asking. I think that maybe he became used to it that's why he's not saying thank you anymore. But this "I-understand-that-you-want-this-but-you-cant-buy-it-so-i'd-go-get-it-for-you" thing is making me confused.
It's like I became a walking credit card and I just found out that he's cheating on me! I confronted him, and he became that sweet guy again and he swore that he'll never do it again, so I forgave him and I'm lost! I dunno what to do again..
If he wants something from me, like he's asking me to buy him a phone, or he wants to eat lunch outside, and I said NO because I don't have any money left, he won't answer my calls, or txt me.
And today, he didn't tell me that he went out with his friends to go swimming because we talked about doing something this weekend together, that's why I'm really pissed.
I really want to let go, but something's holding me back. I really don't know what to do, when to start, and how much money I have left because this guy's really getting spoiled.
I know that it's my fault, but please, just help me get out of this crap hole.
Pls help.