edgecrusher
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this started for me in high school. the longer i was in high school the more i felt this way. i never got into drugs like everyone i used to hang out with did. i have never even smoked a cigarette, i have no desire to do that. i dont know about everywhere else, but the public schools where i live in the US are terrible. stupid crap at school made me realize that the whole system is mostly BS. im lucky to have passed and im pretty sure that has to do with a teacher just passing me because he knew i needed to get out of there.
im not into what most guys are into around where i live. the only guy things im into is video games, metal music, and sci-fi movies. i like other movies and music too, some stuff that most guys wouldnt like or atleast admit to liking. i am one of the VERY few guys around here that isnt homophobic. it just really doesnt bother me. i dont feel threatened or the need to defend myself against "the homosexual onslaught" that these guys act like is happening. just because a guy is gay, doesnt mean he wasnt to do you. being gay is not a choice, people are born that way, i have seen it first hand. i guess im just secure with my sexuality even though i have never experienced it.
i just feel like the world is so backwards sometimes. people freaking out over petty crap, obsessing over celebrities and the gossip that comes with it. this "reality" show thing thats happening with tv that just wont seem to die. the stupid stuff that we have done to each other over our years here. sometimes i wonder if the human race is actually like a virus to the planet, like we are consuming everything until there is nothing left. thats pretty grim thinking but my mind tends to over analyze everything and think of many possible outcomes and scenarios for situations.
somethign that has been messing with my head lately is the concept of god. i cant help but think that man created this to try to explain the unexplainable things aout life. and then someone used it to put fear in people to get what they wanted and it got out of control. as far as god goes, im undecided on whether i believe or not, more towards the no side. i would really like to think that i am not alone in this world in that sense, but it sure feels like i am.
im not into what most guys are into around where i live. the only guy things im into is video games, metal music, and sci-fi movies. i like other movies and music too, some stuff that most guys wouldnt like or atleast admit to liking. i am one of the VERY few guys around here that isnt homophobic. it just really doesnt bother me. i dont feel threatened or the need to defend myself against "the homosexual onslaught" that these guys act like is happening. just because a guy is gay, doesnt mean he wasnt to do you. being gay is not a choice, people are born that way, i have seen it first hand. i guess im just secure with my sexuality even though i have never experienced it.
i just feel like the world is so backwards sometimes. people freaking out over petty crap, obsessing over celebrities and the gossip that comes with it. this "reality" show thing thats happening with tv that just wont seem to die. the stupid stuff that we have done to each other over our years here. sometimes i wonder if the human race is actually like a virus to the planet, like we are consuming everything until there is nothing left. thats pretty grim thinking but my mind tends to over analyze everything and think of many possible outcomes and scenarios for situations.
somethign that has been messing with my head lately is the concept of god. i cant help but think that man created this to try to explain the unexplainable things aout life. and then someone used it to put fear in people to get what they wanted and it got out of control. as far as god goes, im undecided on whether i believe or not, more towards the no side. i would really like to think that i am not alone in this world in that sense, but it sure feels like i am.