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Me. :p
Is that you on the photo?
From where is your avatar?
 
yeah thats meeeee  =/....and avatar i just did random searching on google.
 
Guest said:
I'm alone every Friday night.

Sadly, I am as well... it's 10:46 PM... in the past I would be at the movies with friends.. now I stay at home playing Counter-Strike 1.5..
 
I've been alone pretty much every Friday night since.....since 12? I guess? Yah, never really did much throughout my teen years, and seeing as I only have one teen year left, there's not much prospect of my situation improving. Of course....I think I'll have the last laugh eventually.....let's just say I'll be spending many of my Friday nights from now on doing more productive things than going to the movies or hanging out with friends.
 
I feel like I'm alone every night. I feel loneliness even when I'm amongst my friends. This really sucks. I see plenty of ppl walking up and down that stupid central road but nobody stops, nobody cares.
 
I have been alone every friday night in my entire life. :p
I don't know how bad or good this is, because I can't imagine anything else.
I only began to realize that I have a problem when I was 19.
 
What I do to curb the loneliness I feel on every single Friday night of my life currently, is to, like every other day, engage in cardio, weightlifting and overall conditioning. I find it gives me a purpose and let's my mind ignore the fact that I've been shunned by others most of my life. So in short, just do something productive if you have the time and prove to the rest of the people that ignore you that you've got more focus, drive, and dedication than them. That's what I sort of meant by my whole "last laugh" thing....
 
Is anybody alone this Friday nite (20/4/07), this is my sixth Friday nite in a row that ill be doing nothing
 
To Wendi

Hey its me again, what part of USA are you from East, Middle or west? Anyways Im from Australia and its 10.11pm here, do you go on yahoo messenger? I do have msn messenger your more than welcome to come and have a chat with me on [email protected] though it would be hard cause of the time barrier, but if you want to have a chat wit me tonite (ur time that is) I should be awake by then.

I felt fine throughout the morning and afternoon, then prime time kicks off and the whole street is so quiet and all the lights of every house are off. And at 8pm theres one house in my neighbourhood right now most of them are in my age group (18-25). Though I have never been included in their circle of friends. They are extremely social to one another. My window is open and I can hear them talking and laughing, and a few minutes ago i hear guys saying 'STRIP, STRIP, STRIP, TAKE UR clothes off !!!' Screw them I said to myself, I was feeling good about myself today and the talking and laughing and shouting right outside my window it all went to honeysuckle.

FILOBOY
 
To Wendi Again

Having read your Thread on loneliness and Africa basically makes me realise that all human beings have their own problems in life. But loneliness and I being alone on friday nights is nothing compared to being homeless, having no friends,no food, no clothes on a winters night, no water on a hot summers day, or a lepers societies ultimate outcasts dating back in the time of Jesus.

Though I have many problems in life even financially I always give money to the poor either donation in church or the salvation Army. In relation to friday night alone tonight I want to get out, and have fun, party, go out, enjoy what life has to offer but i cant. because i have no one to be with me. Though Im about to turn 20 in 3 months I do feel as though ive missed out alot on my youth. I just hope that by the time I hit my 20s I will stop being a loner, that i will have friends and I certainly dont want to become an hermit when I GROW UP.

As i type i have a whole list of ppl to call though their either to drunk or too busy having fun, and msn and yahoo are ghost chatrooms on a friday nite. Back to the party their arguing who cooks the best bbq. They state a good bbq needs 110% dedication and passion, mmmmmm if only I was there I wouldve shown them how a bbq specialist does it in order to have a good and delicious bbq u need to be cooking it at 200%.:p

FILOBOY
 
So, call me crazy, but I actually find Mondays harder than Friday nights. Because at work on Monday everytime I see someone they ask what I did that weekend. And all I can ever say is "Um, I read... and went grocery shopping. Milk was on sale- it was pretty exciting". So then I get bummed out about how I did absolutely nothing over the weekend. But by the time Friday comes around again, I'm thinking to myself, hey I can go grocery shopping again! Grocery shopping is pretty much the high point of my week.
 
The same thing happens to me at school on Mondays. All my friends ask me what I did on the weekend and I just say I went on the computer. They tell me to get out more but I can't since I'm only 15 so I can't drive, I live far away from anything entertaining, and my parents never go anywhere fun. Just the grocery store or Wal Mart or something. So basically I have no choice but to do nothing.

And I'm all alone this Friday night. I've been alone too often. I wish my friends were a little less busy, or I could at least do something. But instead I'm stuck doing exactly nothing. Ugh! My life is so boring!
 
wendi said:
Hello, Filoboy. :)
You should register! Thanks for offering to chat with me, you're a dear. For some reason I can't get yahoo messenger to work on my computer. But you can find me on AOL instant messenger or MSN as SillyOphelia.

I am presently on the east coast. Why do the party people bother you? Because they are boisterous or because you want to be included? Or both?

19 is a tough year for everyone. You're straddling both youth and adulthood and plunged into the "real world." Things will look up though. ;)

To Wendi

:)Hey Sweetie thx for the reply and I do apologise for not replying earlier it was around 3am in Australia when you replied. Mind you they were well behaved last night these young peoples but I guess being alone and lonely especially on a Friday and a Saturday night and seeing other people have so much fun while your at home being miserable and cravings for social attention overwhelms me with jealousy inside. I ask myself why I can’t have this much fun, or live a lifestyle of a party. It’s also because I was feeling fine even though I wasn’t doing much during the mornings and arvo I wasnt down at all and this happens is like a legitimate proof that my situation is really bad. Its only when I’m alone and you see other people have fun you kinda ask yourself could there be something wrong with me? Why am I stuck in this situation? Are they just bastards in general or is there really something wrong with me.

Sometimes it’s to the point that it really is embarrassing so I close my window, the colour blinds and my lights so they won’t see me a poor loner with no friends, and it doesnt really help if your living with your parents. Mind you that neighbour of mind across the road is also 19 but lives with his hot girl friend, has a nice Holden Commodore and he seems to have all the friends in the world and a social life that I can only dream off. It feels like the grass is always greener on the other side and muddy on my side. I ask myself (lol I ask myself too many things) or tell myself **** that looks good, how does he get that for such a young age, how did he score a girl like that, where did he get or find all his friends, how did he get the money to buy this car, why was he blessed with good looks, WTF my parents have been working their ass of for more than 30 yrs, and he’s only been in the workforce for only like less than 4 yrs and can afford a mansion that his garage will dwarf my house alone. Maybe he’s renting because I’m pretty sure that at 19 you’re still too young to own your own home in Australia.

Now it’s a Saturday and things are just about to get worse in the next few hours. For the last six weeks, weekends have been one hell of a rough tough ride. I know that there are millions and millions of people are going to be out tonight people whom I can be friends with, which makes me incredibly lonely, people whom I can actually get to know but I really don’t have any cash to be spending on booze, the cover charges and considering that the city is too far and public transport these days are expensive and I’m too shy I guess I’m going to spend another lonely Saturday night.

But its good that most of youse are staying away from drunken parties, its not good believe me. It might feel that these drunken people have a million friends but they are not true friends at all. A perfect example I stopped drinking for six weeks and none of my ‘FRIENDS!’ bothered to check up on me. Its only when I stopped drinking and going to bars and clubs that I don’t have any friends. Anyways I’ve found my new sets of friends in this forum, ill pour a glass of red wine on my glass and say Cheers to us who’s gonna be lonely on what it seems like another lonely Saturday night.

Being a 19 yr old is so tough everyday of being 19 is like having to last a long endurance test. In high school things were so easy all I really thought about is getting good grades, and I didn’t had that much of a social life. Only when I left high school that I realise that this is a real potential problem. Back in high school we didn’t really care about what we wear cause we wore the same coloured yucky brown uniform, but then its only when your in public when I started to become really self conscious about what I look like, when I started to become fuzzy with my hair and really picky about the clothes that I should wear. Leaving high school also ment that your out there in this crazy, scary world design by the big guns whom you look up too such as your managers who drive fast cars, get all the friends they want and get laid anytime they wish.

It’s only at the age of 19 yrs old that I start questioning and trying to find the answers what’s my purpose in this world? whats my place/position among the other people in society? Will life get better for me or worse, or is it that I shouldn’t ask for more that this is my fate and this will be how good it gets. It’s at this age that you feel pressured by society to be somebody, to do extra ordinary things but if nothing works out then that’s when you tell yourself that you are worthless. And it doesnt help when your family and parents who suppose to be supportive, are instead critical of you of being a failure. I know I have some good qualities in me, but im just so blinded by it because I compare myself with everybody and its not good because in the end its all just a one horse race, its just a race against yourself. I never had anyone told me that I was beutiful, that i was good at something and right now my self esteem and confidence is reallly low.

A question for you wendi when you turn 20 what did it feel like? Did it made you feel old to know that being 20 makes you halfway to becoming a 40yr old? Does life get better in your 20s??

Another P.S ive tried to register 3 weeks ago but I still haven’t received an email from the moderators for me to activate my account. I cant send the moderators an email or PM to notify them about it. So for now you can jst refer to me as

Unregistered FILOBOY :(
 
To Broken Dreams and Elaeagnus

Well normally when someone approaches me what I did on the weekend i would normally make up some bullshit story up, or when someone asks me what i will do on the weekends i tell them what i want to do but it rarely happens.The truth can be shameful and it hurts so we lie..

Now this is for you Broken Dreams your still young, your only 15 and you have the rest of your life ahead of you. In 4 yrs from now your life will totally change youll be able to enjoy the pleasure of driving in a car meaning you can travel more, youll be more independent and at 19 you are able to step inside a bar or night club and you will look back and say 'Hey my life aint that bad after all'. As for me ive never really lived my teenage years to the full potential, its only when i started going out lets just say at the age of 18.Outside of family functions ive been only in 3 parties (from age of 16-18, friends 17th, after prom party and after graduation party) I ask myself why i havent done these things at a much more earlier age. My only advice is do as much things as you can do while your young.

My life when I was in your age I think till I was 18 it consisted of nothing but homework, church and TV and an occassional family functions. The reason also why i didnt go out much back then is cause my parents were really strict of me going out that I have to focus more on my education and fun later. My school holidays consisted of me doing nothing except reading, listening to the radio and watching TV. Also I didnt had a job back then so I would ask them for some money even if I do go out. The funny thing is I was still asking for pocket money every week till I finally got a job at 18. And even at the age of 19 I still dont go out as much, though it also depends on my mood as well in one week i would normally go out once or twice, but sometimes i wouldnt even go out for as long as 3 weeks or even a month.
 
I feel as if I'm a face among a crowd that just blends together. I agree that no one really cares about anyone else anymore. Or goes out on a limb for anyone. I try and make friends, but when I finally get into a situation with them I am at a loss for what to do and just feel as if I'm boring them to death and making them sit and talk with me. I feel as if people are just polite to me, not real. not warm.

I try and be warm towards people, but I think I somehow send the wrong message. At least you are attractive Mike, lol. I'm just a big gay boy with no life. So that computes to a fat middle aged gay man thats still alone in 10 more years. Thats not the most reassuring thought to me, but I have no idea how to go about being social anymore. Gay clubs and bars are just about one thing, sex. I have no interest in hook ups and one nighters, i want friends and maybe a lover or bf or something. yet I'm alone.

I work really hard. I go to school and work 2 jobs. That doesn't leave me alot of spare time to socialize, but I still like to go out on occasion. I'll go to a bar just to see people, but people don't come and talk unless they are stupidly drunk. I have a few friends, but they live quite far away and I can't move because of school and work. I just. I don't know what to do...

I'm sorry I'm rambling so much, but I think I need to ramble some.

I have a myspace if anyone is interested. Me and my 11 friends, lol.

www.myspace.com/notflounder

so, yeah, I dunno. if you feel the same way, hit me up. I'd like a pen pal or a online bud or something.
 
Guest said:
so, yeah, I dunno. if you feel the same way, hit me up. I'd like a pen pal or a online bud or something.

If you want more people to talk to, you should registrer on this site!

Regular friday night over here in front of the computer. TV on in the background, but nothing to watch. Wish I could just work so I had an excuse for not doing anything.

How's everyone else doing?
 

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