sylvestris lybica
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I'm being a self-pitying POS tonight, and I am painfully aware that I have nothing to pity. There is honeysuckle that needs to get done and I'm failing to do it. I'm late to work, late to classes. I binged on foods and messed up my weight loss goals. I'm weak all the time and I want nothing more than to sleep whenever I'm awake. Nightmares every night.
But nothing traumatic is even happening.
How do people stay motivated, is what I'm asking? Why do you wake up in the morning and go to a dead end job? Why do you hope for happiness when you haven't felt it in so long? Idk, I'm always marveling at the way people just pick themselves up and get it done. Maybe I'm just lazy, slothful. But I just don't care anymore, and it makes me feel like a rotten spoiled child.
But nothing traumatic is even happening.
How do people stay motivated, is what I'm asking? Why do you wake up in the morning and go to a dead end job? Why do you hope for happiness when you haven't felt it in so long? Idk, I'm always marveling at the way people just pick themselves up and get it done. Maybe I'm just lazy, slothful. But I just don't care anymore, and it makes me feel like a rotten spoiled child.