My day....lets see I woke up at 12ish and wasn't sure how i was going to go about my day. I decided i would miss my tutorial at uni and pack my bags and go home for the weekend. I had a shower and packed. I stared in the mirror as i tied my hair up, I hate having my hair tied back. I looked at the dark cirlces under my eyes and my spotty skin and how much like an old woman or even how much like a witch I looked. Then I walked into uni and tried to ignore everyone, I was meeitng an old classmate because she wanted to borrow a book. I stood outside the library and text her, she rang she had totally forgoteen she was meeting me, she apoligised and I said it was fine. Even tough in my head I was thinking I could have gone home alot earlier if I had known but it didn't matter she use ot be a good friend to me. I then got the tram to the station and pretended to be on my phone, I'm not sure who I was pretending to tlak to but I've always found if I pretend ot be on my phone, it makes me feel like I'm talking to someone, like a matter ot someone. Also I don;t hav eo tworry about making accidental eye conatct with the peopel around me if I pretend to be on my phoen. When I got to the station I went to by my ticket, I remember seeing this really skinny mpretty girl and looking at the way she was dressed, I really liekd it and wished I couild dress like that. Shre smiled at me I got scared and walked away quickly. I sat on the train to my city and then caught the bus home. On opening the door, i shouted hi, nobosy answered,nobody was in. I ate some of my mums lovely food and watched t.v., i felt really tired ann lethargic so I decided to have a ralxing bath and then worry about the things I should be doing. Atfer my bath I realised my friwnd ahd rang em and rang her back. My brother came home with a friend, he said he was going out and started to get ready. My mum came home and told me she took my brother to the hospital last night because he took too many tablets. I'm sitll unclear whter he did it on purpose or not, my mum seems to think iot couild have been on purpose and him and his friends claim he did it by mistake. He was asking for his ex girlfriedn whe going to the hospital, she went to see him because my mum rang her but told hium she did not wnat to see him again. I did not know all of this and whne my mum told me my brother had been in hospital I went and spoke/shouted at him about how much weed he has been smoking recenlty, I told him I wopuld tell mum. My mum heard me saying this. My bro went out and I got shouted at for not telling my mum about the weed. I love my brother i do..its just that i spent all week worrying about how much weed he was smoking and planning startegies to make sure he cuts down and quits and I come home to be hit by this. I guess what really gets to me is that all I've ever wanted is what he has...good friends and to be liked. Neway after all of this I halped my mum try and buy a sat nav but I couldn't do it online so have to ring them tomorow. Then I ate food that I really did not need to eat and scoffed a packet of biscuits ot make myself feel better. I then came onto this site and spoke to people on msn. Then a guy thatg I kind of like rang em and started talking about sex... i liked the fatc that he rang.. i don't like that all he wanted to talk about was sex. We were goign to meet up tomorow but with everything going on in my head I'm not so sure its a good idea..I prmoised myself no more guys untill i feel better. My mum said she wanted to go shopping whihc mean sto tomorow is goin to be busy. I need to have a shower, wash my hair, clean my room, cook and try and and work out my revision timetable before she gets back from work. Overall my day hasn't been so good but am hoping 2moro wil be better. Positives about today are that I had a long relaxing bath, i don't usually do things like that.
3 hours.. Not bad I think. I can do this!
