too much worry

[sneha]

i have this tendency to loose interest after some time,,and for some reason,,even the opposite person,,tends to forget me gradually. i have accepted this fact that no relationship is gonna last long enuf for me
and thats why i want to enjoy and cherish each and every moment spent .
i sincerely wud like to commit for a long term relationship,,but my own insecurities prevent me from doing so.
untill and unless i am at peace with my self i will always have trouble with relationships
i worry too much wat the other person wil think if i do this or that,,and this constant worrying spoils the moment which is now,,which i am supposed to enjoy to the fullest
i am so living in fear of constant rejection that i m spoiling my present,
when i read about big companies and every other person joining big companies and getting fat pay packages,, my heart just sinks with remorse and full of doubt on my abilities
i want to earn good money too,,
but i dont know how
at times i become so desperate and restless when i see my frnds going to big companies and earn handsome salary
i worry about my future and i feel so depressed
i wish i get some direction where i will finally earn lots of money.

 

[Mary Mary]

I used to have a lot of anxiety, too. Go to therapy. Get a strategy.