Amazing how this shitty feeling feels the same for different people

[MadMonkè]

everyone has their own unique experience of this world.
and at times, I feel like I'm having the worst trip of them all.
I'm hesitant to find solace when I realize that others feel the same way.

I don't talk to people much. and its beginning to affect my life. Gloomy..
But I'm just tricking myself. Life was never meant to be easy...

So I signed up, cuz I wanted to try to make friends online - at least withpeople who can see the world as I see it.

I feel like nobody gets it.
my friends think im lazy... or crazy... and both.
my parents are feeling both worried and angry. I am too at myself.. but what can I do? I feel like I'm trapped in a mental maze spiraling down. a victim of my own imagination.

IF ONLY I IMAGINED SUCCESS! LOL That honeysuckle never works... Sure.... I was dreaming about it often enough...

changing the mental mood requires changing habits and behaviours.
and I feel like I'm taking my first step.

So... if anyone is reading this.. I hope we can become friends. I'd like to look forward to something social and uplifting, if not developmental for myself.

I have 27yrs of SOB stories to share... and my attempts to learn from them... that drove me insane.


2 Questions To Get Started:
1. Are RSS feeds used to subscribe to forums?
2. Can someone help me out with my google setup?

 

[Orangepants]

My brother,

You must focus on everything that's possible and leave what's negative behind. Find something your passionate about. Thoughts of sorrow will deteriorate you at a whole, eliminating you from opportunity. You gotta start feeling great full and I will share with you something

 

[Tessdville]

Hi there,
Have you just joined? I am new to this and joined cos I have never felt so alone in all my life. I'd like to try and help others who feel the same way and hope they will help me.
Your post was so mixed up I felt I'd like to help, if you want me to.....
You're asking for help, but you say you're hesitant to accept that others feel the same way......
You say you don't talk to people much, but you have friends, although you say they think you're lazy/crazy, you still class them as friends.....
You mention parents feeling worried and angry-both signs that they care.....

To me, it sounds like you are going through a difficult stage in your life, but you have all the tools around you to help you get through it and I think you will.

What stuff are you into? What music do you like? What's it like where you live?

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Hi there,
Have you just joined? I am new to this and joined cos I have never felt so alone in all my life. I'd like to try and help others who feel the same way and hope they will help me.
Your post was so mixed up I felt I'd like to help, if you want me to.....
You're asking for help, but you say you're hesitant to accept that others feel the same way......
You say you don't talk to people much, but you have friends, although you say they think you're lazy/crazy, you still class them as friends.....
You mention parents feeling worried and angry-both signs that they care.....

To me, it sounds like you are going through a difficult stage in your life, but you have all the tools around you to help you get through it and I think you will.

What stuff are you into? What music do you like? What's it like where you live?

 

[MadMonkè]

Hey cool.. same here. I just think online is the easiest to get a convo going nowadays...
the hard part is to follow up. thats why I asked about RSS feeds or subscribing to a thread somehow.

I guess my post does sound a bit more dingy than my original intent. Communication was never my forte.
I always want to express so much but afraid that writing too much will get boring so i jump a lot lol....

But Im glad it got your attention!

I have friends who have my best intentions at heart... having someone to razz on me is good for the soul, if I learn how to brush it off properly. and having parents that worry about me makes me worry about them worrying too much. I dont want my parents to worry about me because I care. but I cant change everything in a day... so having to put them through this with me is weighing me down...

what are you going through? why so lonely?

 

[Tessdville]

Hi,
Your parents will always worry about you-it's in the job description!!
I'm afraid I don't know what RSS means!

I feel lonely because my dad doesn't want to know me and I've just come to the realisation my mum is an alcoholic! She tried to attack me a few weeks ago and so we no longer have a relationship. I am unlucky with the men in my life and I can't be bothered at work to socialise, as I feel I have nothing important to say!

That's obviously the basics, but i do find life hard.

I have been on a few sites but cannot connect with anyone online either!! Sometimes I get by ok but other times the loneliness can really hurt.

So, how was your weekend?