well...I had a very bad body image once. Everytime I looked in the mirror..I thought I was too fat. (and I'm a guy
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People were telling me I needed to put on wieght or I was going to disappear.lol
At that piont in time of my life...I only weight 105lb. I wore size 27 slim fit pants.lol I thought I looked good.
I'm 5'7"
Today I wieght 140. I lost almost 10lb. I had to go buy new pants becuase all of my pants are too baggie for me now.
Here's a recent picture of me about 3 months ago. My wieght was 147.
I was nowhere near being fat. I'm 43 and I'm nowhere near being balb.lol
I have beautiful olive skin. In other words...I'm bless with a nature tan and I aint hairy.lol
I barely have any hair on my body on my arms, legs, back...etc.lmao
Once upon a time..I hated the way I looked. I bascailly grew up around a bouch of white or cucasian people.
I stood out like a fucken shiney door knob.
here's a picture of my duaghter...She's a heart breaker.lol
In other words she has guys chasing after her because she smexy...
So how can i be ugly...if she looks just like me???
It's just the perception or bad image I had of myself.
Her mother is a very beautiful looking woman. She had all kinds guys hitting on her when I first met her.
But she asked me out. It kind of blew me away becuase I didn't think a beautiful woman like her would want anything to do with me.
Especailly if she could have any guys she wanted. I thought she was too good looking for me. Which is one of the reasons I nevered consider approching her.
I've watched guys hit up on her and get rejected.lol
The turth of the matter is she found me attractive and thought I was cute, which is one of the reasons she asked me out.
Another thing was...i was bascailly broke and didn't have a dime in my name. She had a car. She used to take me out all the time.
Somewhere alone the line she loves me and cares for me very much. It's more than skin deep.
So how can i be ugly...if every women that I've had long term relationships with had asked me out???
I felt very much the sameway when Jenni asked me out.
Jenni was a very beautiful woman inside and out. All eyes would turn to her when she enters a room.
On top of that..She was a very successful professional woman. She made twice the money i made.
Women in their bussiness dress with knee high boots totally turns me on
I thought she was ....way...way out of my league.
She dressed very professional..and there i was in my jeans and T-shirt having a romatic dinner with her in a very fancy resturant.
Somewhere alone the line she found me very attractive beyound my looks and how much money I made.
What I'm saying is...the experinces and evidence are contrary to the negative images and perceptions i have with myself.
My negative perceptions of myself gose beyound my looks....and it's all in my head.