What kept/keeps you from suicide?

[IgnoredOne]

There is only one thing that keeps me going. While it will sound crazy(and it is) I am being completely honest, I want to see the world burn. I want to see the complete destruction of everything. Now only the Universe can provide what I require to die in peace(its NOT a paradox lol) Everyday there is some event or story that leads me to believe the end is near and sucide is a waste, though I go to bed each night hoping never to awaken.

Oh and I guess that Im a big fat pussy doesnt help me in that arena.

You should probably work to bring the world to fire. Its more fun that way

 

[LostInside]

for some it is, but i imagine that there is more than just the issue of being alone present here. perhaps the other members are just too shy or embarrassed to speak the whole truth.

Well the question was directed towards me. Sure it could drive other people to suicide, I didn't state otherwise. Like you say many here including myself have other stuff going on.

 

[Lonesome Crow]

There's a very beautiful soul.She has a very big heart. Her life is an open
book. Anyone can look into it if they wish to. She has nothing to hide.
Underneath her pretty smile and beautiful face....is a little girl.

My little baby girl. Life took something precious away from her from
the moment she was borned. No matter the amount of fame, fortune
and money can ever replace what she had lost.

I pray for her soul, life and healing. I breath for her. I cry her tears for her.
I let her know that she's loved. tHAT i LOVE her. Inspite of everything
I love her no matter what. She cries her heart heart just to utter some
simple words.."daddy, I love you" Something she wanted to tell me
and have all her life. Things some people take for granted.
My life hasnt been all about me. It was never all about me...
I love Kimmi more than life itself. No one else nor anything else can give that to her but me.

 

[Miss Demeanour]

My kids!

 

[Night]

Everything I haven't done yet in my life. And considering I'm in high school, that's quite a lot. I've thought about it many times, but in the end I decide to pull through and see whats coming up in the future.

 

[JustHateIT]

Two things. 1.I could not do that to myself. 2. Music.

 

[littlerivers]

Knowing how upset my family would be. And knowing that I don't believe in reincarnation or heaven, so knowing there's nothing else out there. And knowing that if I'm going to kill myself, I might as well go crazy, take drugs, avenge a few highschool grudges, and sleep around first!

 

[mintymint]

A prescription

 

[someguy23475]

I'm not sure what to do. No one cares about me.

 

[duality]

What keeps you from killing your self or how do you fight the thoughts of suicide?

Only one reason keeps me from doing it: because it might hurt like hell.

Seriously, if I could find a totally painless transition from life to death, there's a high chance I might do it.

Ok, maybe I'm not being honest with myself. Maybe another reason why I haven't done it yet is because I think somewhere deep inside me, there's still this small, very small, glimmer of hope that my life will get better. But it's so small I don't really know if it truly exists.

 

[TodaysNobody]

"It is not worth the bother of killing yourself, since you always kill yourself too late." -Emil Cioran.

^^^That is the reason I continue to trudge on through this pathetic existence.

 

[Cerberus]

I've never attempted suicide, but have before thought about it years ago when I was at my saddest. There was a line in a 2pac song that explains why it stayed as thoughts only, and never action perfectly, "all I could see was my mother's eyes". I couldnt do it to her, I love her too much.

 

[softwarefreak]

Can't say "what", but the SAW ending describes it well enough:

Most people are so ungrateful to be alive.
But not you.
Not anymore.​

 

[sadface]

food

 

[NeverMore]

Video games, movies, anime, books all of life's little escapes that make you forget you're alive just long enough for you to enjoy them.

 

[ヾ(^▽^)ノ -Chippy]

Anime and the fact I shall one day spark a revolution and get to watch the elitists being blundered to death by the angry mobs of the working class.

 

[jjam]

Video games, movies, anime, books all of life's little escapes that make you forget you're alive just long enough for you to enjoy them.

Video games have been like talismans in my life. I'll be 30 soon and it has been something like my last 27 years of living that I've been a gamer. Today I was playing Bit.Trip Runner - an oldie, but a game of my favorite WiiWare series. It feels so good to have retired from Super Street Fighter IV AE (even though I'll be glued to the monitor tomorrow while the stream of the Evo finals happen). I was addicted to SFIV, then SSFIV, and then SSFIVAE, but I've managed to pull myself away and it feels so good. I'm back to where I've always belonged as a gamer - playing a wide variety of games as opposed to being a "game specialist".

 

[Lavender]

The closest I ever came to considering it was when I was 24 and living in a bad situation that constantly had me angry, sad and stressed out. Since then, I have a "fantasy" every now and then of if I did something, but it's only because something upset me and I'm thinking how peaceful it would be to never deal with it again, as well as imagining how I could slip away, change my name, skip to another country and disappear from my family forever; but that's all these are for me, just fantasies and sometimes, I think of goofy situations that make me laugh.

At this point now, I know I'll never pursue that kind of thing, because what I really want to do is take steps to have more control over my destiny and not let temporary things overwhelm me. I want to deal with people and situations in a way which benefits me positively. For this reason, I like reading biographies of people who have made successes in spite of dubious circumstances, because often times, it helps give me a more realistic perspective of my own situation and how it's not the worst one that anyone ever had to live through.

The most driving aspect about it for me I suppose is that if I were to go through with such a thing, I'd feel like everything I fought through until now would have been for nothing and I think of how people I've known would feel. Also, in some weird way, I also think about how in the future I might have had the chance to help someone else if only I stuck with it, even if indirectly, like them reading my autobiography.

 

[allanh]

I might be lonely and sad, but I am not a coward.

 

[beans]

I might be lonely and sad, but I am not a coward.

Hmm I think it takes courage to commit suicide. If you fail at it, there are very serious consequences. The thought of the unknown, etc. I admire people who manage to do it.