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I think I have all these elements quite badly...Just recently I've felt like my heads going to explode from the pain of not living. Maybe thats a good thing maybe I'll eventually explode and have to make some changes but right now it just feels bad. For instance tomorrows theres this social...

I mentally torture myself all the time...I going to try a strategy of not allowing myself to torture myself...Which means saying no to every anxiety, regret, what if?, depressive thought, indecisiveness. But I don't know if its possible, particually as I feel like I might be doing it almost all...

Sometimes I can have lots of energy, manic energy, I'll be imagining impressing some people being funny etc. But in real social situations, I have no energy at all. I'm a Zombie. Nearly 24 never had a proper relationship......I can't feel my emotions, all I feel is a lurking anxiety because I...

I went and met a girl in town today who I'd been speaking to on msn, which is a big thing for me, not really sure if it was a date but seemed almost like one. I have never had a girlfriend etc and live quite an isolated life. I knew it would be hard but it was even worse than I thought. While...

Was reading about creativity/depression. Thought this chapter from a book seemed quite interesting. http://www.creativity-portal.com/articles/artofthesong/meaningful-life-work-days.html More on google books here...

The girl I live with, I used to think I loved her. But now its more like hate. She has a boyfriend. When I hear them talking in the kitchen more and more ive started muttering louder and louder things like "shut up you ******* *****" Etc to the point where she might be able to hear me. I think...

Anyone else? I'm quite anxious about the loneliness in store for me tonight.

Does anyone else become depressed after a period of anxiety? I've been anxious recently due to this girl I love who has a bf...but as I'm slowly getting over her, the anxiety is dieing down but I now have no energy and am completely bored. Similar patterns have happened before, my worst...

Its amazing how I seem to be able to sit for hours just staring at this screen, not moving, I don't know how I do it...I don't do anything at all...I think I would be astonished if I saw myself from outside, as a person would, at how much of a dead zombie I must appear to be. I have no interests...

Can't take how I've been trapped inside myself so long. The girl i love is in the kitchen now cooking a meal with her bf. I loved her for so much longer than him. But never came out of myself. Now I'm worried I will scream at her or something, I am so jealous of both of them I can't bear it. And...

I know I need to, I hear it all the time. But always I end up being grumpy, in bad moods...There isn't much that makes me laugh, but when it does I laugh hard, those are the best moments. I tend to laugh in cimenas and university lectures because its silent and there are so many people...

The girl I have fancied for ages who I am about to move in with for last year of uni, with 2 other girls just informed me that they all have b/fs now! I think she is back with an ex. This is very hard to deal with...

My thoughts are so disconnected from how I behave and people perceive me. While a lot is happening in my mind my body will just be slumped here on the seat, when I look out the window I am not looking...its like that is somehow else. Even now as I type this there a craziness in my head, a...

Oh man...you may have seen my insane list of strategies post...this week was no different, I came up with the idea of 'attacking the world' and kind of turning depression into anger as its more energetic. It worked great the other night everyone was saying I seemed a lot more lively than usual...

Like 3-4 years ago...some guy I half knew lost his temper and started headbutting me in a bar, I decided to headbutt back....which became a kind of 'headbutt fight'. I think this might have caused my forehead to thicken up a lot, as it used to be kinda thinner. Now it seems out of sync and too...

I give up. No matter how well its been going, there always comes a time, where something happens, and I suddenly feel too useless, or scared, too lame, or too stupid, or too depressed. Its a bad feeling. But then like someone said about enjoying being depressed it doesn't really feel bad coz...

I often think up life strategies to apply to my life. Its kind of an addiction, they never seem to work in the long term. I have been trying them for like 4 years...I thought I would list some of them coz I'm bored... Loving myself...(trying to love myself no matter what) Focussing on/letting...

I just want to keep her on msn...I don't want to actually meet her. I just want to have her in my head...where I can control her etc. She suggested coming to my hometown tommorow. I had to give loads of half-hearted replies like "if you want to". Now she does not want to. I just think theres...

I sometimes think I might be a 'narcissist' and last night was no exception. I went to the girls house who I feel like I love. It started well I was impressing everyone with my sense of humour...but then after a while I drew into myself and stopped talking. I've only recently noticed as soon as...

sorry I keep going on about this but I find it so insane. The girl I loved...or thought I did, I could go to her house right now. But I don't want to...it seems so mundane, yet at midnight I will crave her company and think how amazing she is...But now I just feel like what would be the point...